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8th July 2007

I Survived My Parents…

I did it best I could.  It is so hard, honestly. 

20070708_00206p Adam did all the work although he never shuts up, which is sort of disturbing.  He just feeds them things to turn around and say negative about us or his family members.  I am over that though, I don’t care anymore about who talks about who. 

I don’t know how he does it though.  Well, I guess I do.  He doesn’t have as strong of feelings as I do.  He is actually a nice guy underneath everything and that is all the way to the core of his being.  I on the other hand am the child of my parents and sometimes it is hard for me to not be angry.

So, my mom has gained a ton of weight and my dad has lost weight on his already very thin frame.  My mom has gigantic false teeth now, her real teeth were very small and sat back in her mouth more.  I am so not used to seeing her or him this way.  They both looked healthy though, so that is good.  I didn’t take any photos of them.

Anyways, I didn’t look at them very much.  Everytime I looked, I could hear the last “fight” words mom said to me while dad listened and said nothing.  Those words were “I should have killed you when I had a chance!”.  These words were ringing in my head for this visit.  I don’t know how to make them go away and I don’t honestly think they ever will.

So, they played with Kyra and talked to Adam.  I sat next to them while doing this a very short amount of time.  They gravitated to outside….95 degree out.  It isn’t hard to get me to go indoors here at all in this temperatures. 

20070708_01306p Here is Kyra on the horse shaped swing they got her for her birthday.  It is actually pretty cute.

They stayed here from like 11:30 until like 2:30.  I survived.

Oh, funny stuff though.  They told Adam that he is supposed to deliver Kyra to visit them.  I am laughing.  They told him they were getting a lawyer because I am stopping them from seeing her.  This is a huge joke…. I have never kept them from seeing Kyra, but I also don’t think that it would be  illegal either, so what are they going to get from this lawyer besides a nice bill.  They already can visit her….didn’t I prove that portion today??

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30th June 2007

Hospital, Exhausted, Garage Sale…

So I dropped Stan off last night at the hospital, expecting to go get him early this morning.  I came home took a shower and blogged my semi-usual routine.  Well, about 15 minutes after I posted here.  The hospital sleep lab called me and said that Stan had a spell.  Yeah, they called it a spell.  Apparently he got pretty upset and tried to clobber the nurse.  They shackled him and took him up to ER.  He doesn’t remember this…his sugar was 28 though. 

I can’t imagine him needing shackled, but I wasn’t there and they don’t know him.  He may have been scared in that he was sleeping and then some stranger was in front of him.  Who knows….

I went down to ER though as the sleep test ended obviously.  I talked to a doctor.  We decided because he is having these sugar issues here at home too.  It was not necessary to admit him.  We reduced his insulin by quite a bit.  He came home with me.

It was about 2 when I got to bed.  I think I slept pretty well, but I know I had this garage sale.  I didn’t want to be irresponsible as my stuff is there for sale.  I got up at 6:45 and went to help set it up and such.  Stan and Kyra came with of course, this was my planned day.

I was exhausted.  I honestly couldn’t function…I am reluctantly admitting this.  Tom and Stan took charge.  I fell out cold sleep on the couch effectively devoiding myself of my garage sale and parenting responsibilities. I slept for at least 3 hours.

I woke up like a new person though.  I actually felt like I had slept.  It is an amazing feeling everyone should feel this.  Kyra was playing out with Tom.  The garage sale traffic was steady for the day, not extravagant and not dead slow.

Lunch time Stan’s sugar dropped again.  He didn’t pass out or act funny though, we just got him more sugar in his system with Chocolate Syrup.  That was probably the first time he has had that in a very long time.  It was the sugariest thing in the fridge though with 20 grams in 2 tablespoons.  Anyways, he has been fine since.  He took his reduced insulin plan this evening and ate really good meal.  I even gave him a small brownie, so he should be good tonight.

Anyways, I made a little over 70 dollars at the garage sale.  My truck driving cooler (a cooler you plug into a cigarette lighter and it continually runs to keep whatever cold) making more than half of my total with one sale as I had it for $40 and wouldn’t be talked down.  It sold… woo hoo.  My dishwasher didn’t sell which was my other big ticket item.  Now, I am going to go the run an ad in the paper route or the sell to the used appliance store people.  Who knows…oh how I wish it would have sold.  It is a portable style which costed about $400 new.  I had it marked $100.  It works perfectly…we had our kitchen remodeled with the new built in version.

I came home slightly before everything was cleaned up, but I only had about 2 boxes of stuff left.  The clothing all going to charity.

I got home and Kyra was acting all weird.  She wasn’t playing like she usually would.  She wanted held and was all loving.  We kissed quite a few times.  LOL… I noticed she was really hot, so I took her temperature.  It was 102.  Aaaaahhhhhh!

She went to sleep for like a nap at slightly later than normal nap time.  She woke up and I let her take a bath in very luke warm water.  She was probably feeling like a polar bear in this water.  It did lower the temperature slightly though.  She seemed slightly better not so loving. 

We fed the goats.  She was so cute.  She does the feeding of the cat for me.  She took like 4 things over to the cat dish and the cat was eating away.  I should have had my camera, but she did that part all by herself, usually I help her.  Pretty soon, she will be the whole barn person.  She now does the cat feeding and the goat watering.  LOL…

We came back and ate supper of pork chops and carrots from the grill.  She ate really well.

20070630_00106p She went off playing sort of like nothing was happening wrong at all.  I am still not sure how she got the thermometer, but she took the temperature of all her stuffed animals and dolls.  They all were close to 80, so on the cold side.  LOL…

Kyra’s temperature is still slightly elevated, but not all that high in the 99 range.  She might be getting something more, but I hope the fever gets rid of it.

She went to bed with hardly a fight even after that late nap.  She is sleeping with her butt in the air with her feet all squished up to her belly.  It looks silly, but she is out. 

Stan is also asleep.  He now has to reschedule his sleep test and hopefully we get this insulin mess corrected and he can go through a day with level sugar levels.

So, that is my day.  It was a really crazy one.  I now need to sleep tonight because tomorrow holds some promise that I could get some work done.  Monday should be crazy too, so a little extra sleep for me won’t hurt any.

Oh, yeah and the blog exchange is in the morning, so come check out my guest writer from Quarter Rest.  Her post is ready and scheduled to post in the morning, as will mine be on her site.  My post this time is not all that exciting.  I did write it on my new laptop though and at the garage sale yesterday.

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18th June 2007

Terrible Terrible Day…The Conclusion!

I went to go to bed just now and Stan was making this awful sound from his room. (His room is directly above my head while I am at my computer and there is a big vent, so I can hear him so much as breath usually. My house is very quiet at night.) I opened the door and there he was dripping sweat from head to toe like he just ran a few marathons. He wasn’t able to talk right, he was basically unresponsive. I got sleep deprived Adam up and called 911.

They came.

Stan was having a sugar fit his sugar was down as low as 29. We are having trouble with it being too high lately not too low.

Anyways, they gave him an IV of whatever it is they give. His sugar is back to normal levels, he ate a sandwich and some cheese and a thing of orange juice.

My heart is going at 800 beats a minute. Oh, this sort of stuff sucks. What a day!

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7th May 2007

Tired…

Today has been very trying.  After this morning, I sort of have been running busses around.  I had to get a spare bus so they could fix the stop arm on mine.  I than had to return the spare bus and get my bus back before my route, so I only had like 3 hours in the middle to attempt to get my heart rate under control.  This was very tiring all by itself.

This image is of my bus after I got it back.  That yellow pole that goes across was fixed, and you can see the slight black mark just under the grill. That is the full damage, so really nothing.

Here is the side mirror.  This is what caused the most damage to the other vehicle and you can see it is badly scratched up.  Nobody would notice though unless I point it out.

So that was that….I still feel pretty bad about it. 

I got home from my afternoon route which went smoothly.

I than had this job at the Staples warehouse and another at the store to do.  The company I work for has been calling me daily about this as I think they wanted it done last weekend.  I think the company behind them was pushing them too, so I don’t know all the details.  I just know I had to get it done.

I went to the warehouse.  I did the job.  It was interesting.  I was sitting like in the middle of the action of the whole place opening cases putting an insert in each box and a sticker on each box and then packaging them back up for store delivery.  I have like 20 or so cases of these to do. 

While I was doing it though people were flying by me on skidsters going up and down and all around.  It was like a circus act.  The stuff was stacked on these large shelves 4 stories high, so they would go up get a box put in on a pallet that was flying around with them and then down and off to the next box.

There was this battery station next to me too, so some other type of worker would just show up with little golf cart like things and change the batteries in these UPC scanners like Velcro connected to there wrists. 

I think half the warehouse said “Hi” to me too.  Sort of like who is the new girl looks on their faces.  It was sort of nice.

I than went to the store, tried to do the same job there.  I couldn’t so I just counted how many needed done and paged my boss.  He didn’t answer so I left.

I than went to another job at Sears.  I did that and left there.

I am now home and exhausted.  It is crazy how much I miss Kyra when I am not here too.  I like to think I need a break from her when I am here all day and than night.  I get this sort of break from her and I miss her.  I am crazy….

Well…I am going to empty my reader and go to bed early.  Good Night….

 

PS…Oh Oh, check out my Chickita Mini Mall underneath here.  This is my new advertising on here which hopefully will help pay the bills.  There seems to be a whole lot of interesting items in there.  Basically anything you can think of, so do a search and check it out. 

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7th May 2007

Accident…

I was in an accident this morning with my school bus.  Everyone is fine…

I was stopped at a stop sign on my way home, not even a mile from home and looked and looked again like I always do.  I didn’t see anyone.  I went and there he was.  I hit him straight on it was totally my fault. 

I didn’t have any kids on except Kyra, but honestly.  I have hit my breaks and stopped harder than I stopped for this accident.  Kyra didn’t even flinch and was laughing when I took her out of the seat.  I was in panic having almost peed my pants.

That said…the 1992 Astrovan that I hit.  Didn’t look so hot after it was hit.  My front mirror smashed it’s windshield and there was a large dent in the side.  The bus is fine, it broke the stop arm (that strange stick that moves out when you are letting kids on and off), but that is all.  There is barely a scratch otherwise. 

He was moving pretty fast when I hit him, but probably not speeding.  I was barely moving of course, just started from a complete stop not even 15 feet gone. He said he saw it coming.  He was as calm as if nothing happened when he got out of the van.  I was in panic and the guy that was hit was calm.  His total complete calmness almost made me more panic, like I had to have enough panic for both of us.

Honestly this was over 2 hours ago and my heart is still racing pretty good pace.

My boss came he was complete calm.  The police came he was complete calm and making Kyra laugh talking about his grandkids.  The whole scene was completely calm except me.  I am usually the calm one, so what is going on here.  I kept thinking to myself stay calm look at everyone else here….

They made this a non-reportable accident so it won’t even be on my driving record.  This I can’t believe.  I got no tickets nothing. I am in total shock.

I asked my boss, “Am I fired??” always the paranoid one.  He replied, “Goodness, No!  Now go home and calm down everything is fine.”  So, this is what I am doing now calming down. 

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3rd April 2007

Toe Done…

Tomorrow when I unwrap my toe.  I will no longer have a toe nail.  Aaaahhhhh.

I had it done at Scotland Podiatric the doctor was Dr. Sekel.

It hurt really bad when he was sticking the needle in to numb it.  It pretty much sucked, I screamed.  I think he was nice though and probably did a good job.  I will tell you better tomorrow because I didn’t watch.

I guess he cut the nail in quarters and just took it out one piece at a time.  It took about 10 minutes to get numb and than about 10 minutes for the removal and bandaging.  Oh, and 10 minutes for the paperwork at the beginning and another 10 minutes for paperwork at the end.

A thing that sucked though was that they gave you a paper that said to take Motrin or Ibuprofen within an hour of the procedure, but I asked for some because I wasn’t going straight home, plus I live 30 minutes away.  They didn’t have any….can you believe that.  We had to run to the store to get this immediately after the thing.

I am mostly happy that this is over.  I hopefully will sleep better tonight. 

I go back to have it checked on the 18th and have to soak it everyday until than for 15 minutes. 

Bye…

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23rd March 2007

Bad Kids, Threats, and Rocks…

Today’s school bus routes went about as bad as they have in a whole long while.  They must have fed the kids something…well, I guess the morning route went fine.  This afternoon though, there was an extra kid on my high school bus that I never seen before, so I do the normal get name and check against roster.  Usually…it is someone who just rarely rides.  Well, today it was someone who doesn’t ride.  I called transportation and than made him get off the bus at the school.  That took an extra 5 minutes.  It isn’t the bad thing that the kid was trying to ride my bus though.  It was that he wouldn’t give his real name…he kept changing it.  He had 3 names in a matter of minutes…LOL. Anyways, he got off.  The high school was fine than.

I got the elementary school later now than usual because we are loading instantly when we get there.  My kids are going off the walls…quite literally.  I have 1/2 the bus standing and louder than usual.  I do know I have one of the louder busses just generally, but today was unheard of loud.  I stopped my bus in route to have them be more quiet.  This just caused craziness.  We don’t have to be quiet blah blah blah…from my normally bad students.  I wanted to pull hair out.  Oh, and I got cursed.  Ultimately, 6 students are getting written up and turned into the principles to talk to and the ride sucked.  I think I have only written up 6 students all year.  Yes, I have written up some several times, but only 6 different students that I can think of.

It was terrible though.

Kyra is all into stickers here lately.  So we are giving her address labels to play with.  Here she is with that long extra piece stuck right across her nose.

I did get some of my work done today not much though.  I was busy IMing some of my old friends.

Oh…oh… yeah.  Team Double Click called me this evening to threaten me that I have a year non-compete agreement.  That I can’t work for their clients, this even after I told them that their client can’t afford me.  They are making it as hard to run for the woods as they were to get the job.  I sort of am amused though with this low belt threats tactic.  I thought they were more professional than this, but they are surprising me at every turn here. 

I guess I should have known to run when they said they didn’t pay for time that you spent on keeping track of their payroll for them and entering your own time into there online Quickbooks.  They have every time saving tool available to there contractors and they make there contractors use them on our time.  That is just sucky…

My rock clubs rock show is this weekend, so today was the set up day.  I took some name tags down and took some pictures of the set up and stuff for there web site.  I will update it in the morning.  I just had to show you this piece though.  It is a $1200 rock. Wowwy….LOL…

Well, that is all.  I am going to bed after I take one of those antibiotics that I got yesterday.  Blah.

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2nd March 2007

Weaning…

Eating Noodle Viciously It is official, Kyra is not getting another “B” again, even if she tries.  She is going on 36 hours of her being weaned. 

She is still sick slightly, but the antibiotics are kicking in and she has her appetite back.  She hadn’t eaten in almost 2 days. No worries though, she has eaten and is back up to strength. 

I am pretty sure that the bronchitis that she has is getting me down now too though and with my now acute knowledge of having boobs.  It is adding to the agony and I can’t sleep well.

I think this weaning process is harder on the mom than anything.  I would have never dreamed it to be this hard.  I know some women have an easy time with it, but I am not one of those women.  This is a very painful experience and I am trying so hard to just keep the tears back a lot of the time.  I don’t have any mastitis or any of that…I had that when she was first born, so I know that having that is 10 times more painful than this, but I am just so uncomfortable.  I hope the uncomfort goes away in a few days…or NOW would be nice.  I dream, I dream.  LOL…

Gotta go to work…

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13th February 2007

A Shocker of a Day…

Well, today just simply sucked.  Yes, it was that bad.  I snowed all day, which all by itself isn’t so bad.  They left school go as scheduled though, well sort of.  I took the kids to school on time that is.  Yes, Monday…they had two hour delay because it was cold.  Today, it is snowing and terrible out and nothing.  Who decides this junk should be fired for sure…

Anyways…the kids got to school.  Than they called school off at 11 o’clock for high school, so yes.  The kids were in school the required 4 hours to call it a day.  We had a one hour break and went and took them all back home in this terrible weather, but I am glad that I wasn’t driving at 2, so I guess be greatful.

This made working at my other job darn near impossible.  I had Tom not come because of the school junk which I guess is no problem really.  Kyra went with Lauren and Stephanie for an hour, so I did get a slight amount of work done.

The crazy thing is which made the day really bad.  I plug my bus in because it is a diesel and that is what you do when it is cold out.  Thank goodness I put Kyra down for this, she was standing beside me and not touching me.  The extension cord that I leave running across my yard was obviously wet (snowed on, you know) well.  I plugged that sucker into the bus and I got quite a jolt.  I actually can still feel or think I can still feel it, who knows in my fingers right now and it has been 8 hours.  It was really terribly.  I haven’t felt anything like that before in my life. I am going to get a pair of rubber gloves to wear for this task in the future.  I don’t ever want to feel that again.

Here is the cutest picture of Kyra from today though.  We were playing with her dolls.  She is such a poser too.  She loves the camera.

We played a whole lot today as you can imagine.  She likes cooking with me too, which is pretty fun.  She also walked quite a bit o the new treadmill with me.  I set it to 1 mph and she can walk right along with me.  It is pretty fun. 

She is also getting interested more and more into books, so we looked at quite a few of her books.  She has one particular one that is the Sesame Street Fire Engine Tour.  There is a dog on every page in it and she likes pointing out the dogs and going “Woo Woo”.  It is pretty funny.

Than here is just a close-up of her face.  I think I am partial, but I have the most adorable kid on earth folks.  It is funny too because she looks a lot like me and I don’t find myself all this adorable.  I guess that I must be though.  LOL… She does have the shape of her dad’s face with that big oval though.  Anyways…I love this shot, so I had to share it.

I am still not feeling so great so I am going to bed although it isn’t early.  I don’t want to be late.  Night…

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